The ‘I’ (ego) is truly always mysterious, vague. The ‘actually’ is just as desperate because it invokes an individual self of which nobody knows what it is. The above quote is paradoxical also because the ‘different’ (other) is an abstraction and one never knows whether one is or could be that.
Altogether a paradox, which is equally ingenious and amusing; expressed in such a busy way as if the only thing that was lacking was the time to be different (or even somebody else).